More often than not, I feel like there is simply not enough time in the day. I mentioned it in a previous blog post, but I keep a crazy schedule, with color coding and endless checklists. Some days I wake up and look at everything I have ahead of me, and I think, "Maybe I will just curl up in bed today, make some *Nutella hot chocolate*, and watch a movie."That moment of implausible thought is enough to make me realize that I can't stop, that I just need to keep moving. But in that small moment, I begin to ache inside for peace and quiet. I love for a day or two to myself, with no required schedule or deadlines to meet. This year, in an attempt to do everything possible my Senior year, I think I have booked myself too full. From fifteen credits to work to conferences to planning committees and more, I just feel like I am run on schedule that will not stop. I find myself worn down, feeling like a horse that has run too far without stopping.
In these times, I wish for a way to stop time. To simply press pause on my life and take a break from the chaos. It would be the greatest gift in the world. I would love to just take a day off. I know this is a first world problem, but I have been in school for four straight years. I have worked a full time job during most of that time. I just feel tired, and I know that this is only the beginning. Adulthood is calling, as my senior teaching classes keep reminding me. I hope that Thanksgiving Break and Christmas Break will be enough to really help me relax, take it easy, and re-cooperate. And next semester, I will definitely re-evaluate my schedule.
You sure do have one crazy schedule! And hopefully you'll be able to rest and relax over Thanksgiving break. And Christmas break is just 44 days away :)
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